Lawsuit Update: It Is Finished!!!

1,604 Days
That’s how many days I have been fighting in a court for legal justice against my ex cult leader, Bill Gothard.
One thousand, six hundred and four long, exhausting, treacherous, grief-filled, gut-wrenching, heart-stopping, healing, redemptive, beautiful, victorious days.
In January 2019 I at last sat in the witness stand of a Chicago court room and told my story before a judge.  Bill Gothard had filed sanctions
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The High Cost of Speaking Out

One year ago today I gathered every ounce of courage I had and did something that would forever change my writing and public story. I went live on NPR and for the very first time, publicly named my second sexual abuser — my father. 
Until that day I had been very open with my story about my former cult leader and his abuse against me, but I had not yet been ready to share the details of the abuse I had endured within my very home.  Prior to my interview...
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New FB Group for Trauma Survivors!

One of the most healing tools for me these past three years has been some private FB groups for other survivors who have walked through similar journeys to mine.  The communities I have found there have been wonderfully helpful as I’ve deconstructed my former beliefs and eventually rebuilt them...
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I Won't Be Speechless

“You’re dishonoring him.” “Why can’t you keep the past in the past?” “You’re bitter.”
These are all words that have been said to me since publicly naming my abuser.  I try to push the words out of my mind, but they hurt.  After 16 years of silence, I have finally found my voice...
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