Freedom Day 2020

Five years ago today, I began my journey out of a cult. 
I walked into a counselors office for the first time in my life and asked for help. 
I didn’t fully understand what kind of trauma I had endured; after all, it was my “normal”. 
I began the incredibly hard work of facing the reality of my trauma. I got angry. I grieved. I accepted. I healed. 
I then began to deconstruct everything I had been taught about God. Was He a God who only loved me if I did...
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Lawsuit Update: It Is Finished!!!

1,604 Days
That’s how many days I have been fighting in a court for legal justice against my ex cult leader, Bill Gothard.
One thousand, six hundred and four long, exhausting, treacherous, grief-filled, gut-wrenching, heart-stopping, healing, redemptive, beautiful, victorious days.
In January 2019 I at last sat in the witness stand of a Chicago court room and told my story before a judge.  Bill Gothard had filed sanctions
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What Is Spiritual Leadership?

What Is Spiritual Leadership?
Today my mom totaled her car in an accident.  And I was reminded just how blessed I am. 💗
While I was Ubering this afternoon I received a text from my mom saying that she had just totaled her van and asked if either I or Josh would come and help her.  My heart stopped for a minute because she didn’t state whether or not she’d been injured...

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Lawsuit Update: Appellate Court

October 20th, 2015.  
Yesterday was the four year anniversary of the initial filing of the lawsuit against my former cult leader.  
Four years.  Who knew one’s life could completely change in just four short years?  Today I sit back in awe of everything I and my fellow plaintiffs have walked through and how each of us has grown.  I’m so proud of my fellow warriors and so incredibly grateful for their support...
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Burn The Ships!

“There was some truth mixed with the heresy.”
“Some good came out of it.”
“Some people were helped.”
I hear these phrases all the time about the cult I was raised in.  People try to convince me that I shouldn’t walk away completely; that somehow the small bits of truth mixed in the cesspool of toxic sewage still makes it worth swimming in.  
Here’s the truth...
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"Why Didn't You Walk Away?"

As I have started sharing my story with more and more people of how I was raised in a cult and eventually finding my way out, I inevitably get asked quite a few follow-up questions. 
One of the most common questions I receive, after finding out that my cult did not consist of a secluded compound where all the families lived together, is “How were you controlled if you weren’t physically being imprisoned?  Why didn’t you just walk away?“
You don’t have to be physically confined to be imprisoned.  There is another way...
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What is Spiritual Abuse?

Spiritual abuse is quickly becoming a buzz word nowadays, but I think few people realize just how prevalent it can be.  Let’s look at a covert example of spiritual abuse I recently encountered, shall we? 
As I was reading the first chapter of James this morning...
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