My Story of Sexual Assault

Today I’d like to share a highly vulnerable story with you in the hopes of getting one very important message across:  You are NEVER at fault for your sexual assault.  EVER.
Shortly before I met my husband, I met another man through online dating. He was from out of state and so the first few months of our relationship were solely long-distance. After countless phone calls...
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An Apology to Fellow Survivors

For this week's book of my #52in2021 challenge, I wanted to share an excerpt from a new memoir I happened upon last week written by cult survivor Charity Rissler titled “Where the Willow Weeps: The Inside Story of Growing Up in a Cult, and how I Found Freedom in Christ”.

I’d never heard of this cult called “The Message”, but the author described it as a fundamentalist cult, so I knew it would be similar to the cult I grew up in... 
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Freedom Day 2020

Five years ago today, I began my journey out of a cult. 
I walked into a counselors office for the first time in my life and asked for help. 
I didn’t fully understand what kind of trauma I had endured; after all, it was my “normal”. 
I began the incredibly hard work of facing the reality of my trauma. I got angry. I grieved. I accepted. I healed. 
I then began to deconstruct everything I had been taught about God. Was He a God who only loved me if I did...
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When The Triggers Don't Stop

I’m currently reading a new book released just this past week, “Woman Rising: A True Story” by Julia McCoy.
This memoir is the incredibly raw and vulnerable depiction of the horrific abuse the daughter of a cult leader endured throughout her childhood, and then how, as a young woman, she made her escape in the middle of the night, and eventually built a new life for herself.  
I’m only a few chapters in, but reading this woman courageously recall the stories of the pain her father inflicted on her has already brought up...
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What Is A Girl Worth?

Never in my life have I read a more impactful book.
After many of my fellow plaintiffs had read and recommended this book to me after its release in September, I finally downloaded the audio version this week and began to listen.  I was not prepared for how it would affect me.
The first day after listening to the first couple of hours, I became very ill and eventually vomited from the overwhelming triggers and grief.  Each day after that, as I continued to listen...
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Fellow Lawsuit Plaintiff Speaks Out

What’s in a name?  More than I ever knew...
Lauren was my hotel roommate last January when our former cult leader to us and our fellow plaintiffs to trial.  
I watched her sassy, confident personality shine as she took the witness stand and seemed to almost breathe fire as the defense attorney attempted, in vain, to tear her apart.  
Hours later, our shaking hands were tightly joined as the judge, who held our fate in his own hands, laid out his final ruling...
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