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A Love That Counts Forward

A love that counts forward. For nine months my relationship with Joshua has consisted of countdowns. We had a countdown for the first time we would see each other. Then a countdown of how many days we had together when he was visiting in Kansas City. Then there were...

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Eight Years Ago Today…

August 12th. Eight years ago today my life was forever changed. I walked into that Chicago office, So desperate, so exhausted, so full of hope... Scarlet carpets, polished brass, bone-white molding; Whitewashed imagery of a promised sanctuary. “He’s the one person...

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His Laugh

His laugh. The first time I heard his laugh it sent electric shivers up my spine. We had known each other for six months, and we laughed together all the time. But I hadn’t realized until that moment, however, that I had never heard his deepest, truest belly laugh....

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Visiting Portland

Visiting Portland

This week I flew out to Portland, OR to visit my boyfriend Joshua Anderson. This is only our second time meeting in person since getting matched on Eharmony in December 2018. We had so many adventures this past week, including making plans for him to move to my home...

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I Won’t Be Speechless

“You’re dishonoring him.” “Why can’t you keep the past in the past?” “You’re bitter.” “It’s not appropriate to speak of it publicly; this is a private matter.” “Why would you want to shame yourself?” These are all words that have been said to me since publicly naming...

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The Power of Vulnerability

Brene Brown says that “Vulnerability is not about winning. It’s not about losing. It’s having the courage to show up — when you can’t control the outcome.” Can I be real with you? Romantic relationships scare the living daylights out of me. Like, seriously. Why is...

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Love Empowers

It’s 4:30am, Palm Sunday. I have to get up in a few hours and teach the young children in church today, yet instead of sleeping, I’m up fighting a terrible allergy attack. Since I can’t sleep I thought I might as well read. I never expected this. For years I have...

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I Found My Soul Mate!!

After trying out online-dating almost two years, I was ready to quit. But last fall God prompted me to give it one more go. Shortly after, I was matched with a name 1,500 miles away from me. His name was Joshua. We began texting every day and soon began to Skype...

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Is it OK to be Angry at God?

Is it okay to be angry at God? The last two days have been hard. There have been quite a few stressful moments and I have been so overwhelmed. Emotions of all kinds have flowed, along side tears. When disappointments hit, sometimes worshiping God is the last thing I...

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Coming Out of A Cult: The Honest Truth

Some people ask me what it’s like coming out of a cult. Well, here’s the honest truth: One day you feel completely empowered. You are cruising down the highway with your freedom songs blasting away, singing your heart out, and feeling invincible. The next morning you...

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