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One Year Ago Today…

This picture popped up on my FB memories today with the caption: Off to Chicago to see some of the most dear people in the world to me. A two hour flight means plenty of time to churn out a new chapter or two. #scandalousgrace #kiakaha #fiercewomen Wow. What a memory....

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Freedom Day 2020

Freedom Day 2020 Five years ago today, I began my journey out of a cult. I walked into a counselors office for the first time in my life and asked for help. I didn’t fully understand what kind of trauma I had endured; after all, it was my “normal.” I began the...

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The Modesty Files: A New Podcast on Toxic Fundamentalism

I woke up just a touch nervous today. This morning a podcast episode has been released where I talk quite frankly about the messy details of my trauma story. A few months ago I received an email from a group of three sisters who run a new podcast called The Modesty...

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The God Who Rescues

"He will rescue the poor when they cry to Him; He will help the oppressed, who have no one to defend them. He feels pity for the week and the needy, and He will rescue them. He will redeem them from oppression and violence, for their lives are precious to him." —Psalm...

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Lawsuit Update: It Is Finished!!!

1,604 Days That’s how many days I have been fighting in a court for legal justice against my ex cult leader, Bill Gothard. One thousand, six hundred and four long, exhausting, treacherous, grief-filled, gut-wrenching, heart-stopping, healing, redemptive, beautiful,...

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Our Day in Court — One Year Later

“The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing.” ~ Edmond Burke One year ago today seven courageous women said “no more”. No more would we be silenced. No more would we remain victims. No one would we stuff away the past. NO MORE. On...

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The Power of $3

What can $3 do? The last month my fellow plaintiffs and I have been raising funds for our continued court battle with our former cult leader. Even though we walked away from the lawsuit in 2018, he decided he wanted revenge and sought sanctions against us. The battle...

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Lawsuit Update: Appellate Court

October 20th, 2015. Yesterday was the four year anniversary of the initial filing of the lawsuit against my former cult leader. Four years. Who knew one’s life could completely change in just four short years? Today I sit back in awe of everything I and my fellow...

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I Forgive You

Three Not-So-Small Words Last night was a difficult one for me. In my dreams I was once again haunted by memories of my former cult leader and his actions which stole my childhood innocence. As I finally rose from my bed at noon I felt so much heaviness over me. But...

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Lawsuit Update — Year Four

Today my friend Rachael Denhollander shared this quote on her Facebook page. The cost, emotional and physical, to see this through has been greater than many will ever know. But I did it because it was right. No matter the cost, it was right. ~ Rachael Denhollander It...

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