In my 26 years of living, 2018 was by far the hardest year yet. Yes, harder than the worst Crohn’s years — the years I was in the hospital for months at a time, or came close to death, or lived in 10/10 pain 24/7. It has been harder than the year my parents split up....
Freedom Day 2018 — Part One
Three years ago today, I took my very first step out of the legalistic, patriarchal cult I had been imprisoned in for more than a decade. With one terrifying leap of faith, I reached out to a professional for help and shared my story for the first time. I was...
Freedom Day 2018 — Part Two
Earlier this fall as I pondered how to celebrate my upcoming Freedom Day, the thought occurred to me that I had never had professional photos taken — not ever. What better way to document my journey than with pictures of some of the things that have had the most...
Just Be Held
The year 2018 has been an earth-shattering, difficult year. One only need read this blog to think “What is up with this girl?! Her life is like a bad soap-opera!” Believe me. I agree. -_- As much as I wish that life were different and easy and full of clear skies...
A New Birth
I can honestly say today was one of the happiest days of my life. Today I was baptized into the glorious TRUE Gospel!! If you know much of my story, then you know that I actually accepted Christ as my savior at the age of ten. Soon after that I was baptized at my...
The Reckoning of Being Enough
I sit in the stillness of the woods, the sound of endless birds’ sonatas fill my searching ears. My heart is restless. I look around the enchanted view of overhanging trees and wildflowers, and I sigh. Why can’t I crowd out the ceaseless noise of one million thoughts?...
2018 BSF Testimony
Last week I completed my second year of Bible Study Fellowship. I recently shared in a post how God brought me to BSF in 2016 and how He used it during the most spiritually crucial time of my life. After such an incredible year of studying John I didn’t see how God...
Dear #MeToo Women
April is Sexual Abuse Awareness Month. As an abuse survivor myself, this topic has become an important issue to me. As part of my desire to reach out to other victims as well as to increase awareness of this topic to the world, I would like to begin this month by...
Where Hope Is Found
My heart is full of mixed emotions tonight. Tomorrow starts the super bowl of the Christians’ holidays. It’s so interesting to compare where you are today as opposed to one year before. Last Easter was the most significant and joyous Easter of my life. I had been...
I Am Enough — A Public Response to Bill Gothard
Wow, what a whirl-wind week it has been! I’m still getting bombarded with so many messages of encouragement and of women sharing their most vulnerable stories. I have cried and prayed with many of them and my heart of overwhelmed with emotion. I feel so blessed to be...